Highly Strung

What to do when you feel like you are getting involved with someone and are perhaps unused to the feeling and a bit scared? What to do when you are feeling like you may be revealing too much? Should you say exactly what you are thinking or should you hold back?

I’m inclined to just saying what I feel, partly because that’s just me, and partly because what’s the point in pretending to be something other than what you are? You’d only be doing the other person and yourself a dis-service.

Savour this, whomsoever may read, I am several wines down and come tomorrow this may all be deleted.

I believe everyone should have a rethink re their desk set up, i’ve chosen to have ‘my desk’ 3 inches off the floor. I am therefore currently stretched out on my belly on my living room floor surfing the internet and listening to the radio. The living room curtains are still closed so for all I know it could be pitch black and 9pm out there (I suspect not).

What I should be doing is brushing my teeth, brushing my hair and getting the hell out of here. Ahh Fridays, it’s nice to be on a go-slow.

Day 3: You may go through the worst period of withdrawal today but be strong and remind yourself that once this is over, symptoms gradually decrease and fade away. In three weeks time physical withdrawal should be a thing of the past. Keep busy, keep focussed.

An unfortunate side effect of the non smoking phenomenen is that my usual talkativeness seems to have spiralled out of control. Last night i met a friend in the pub and was so incredibly animated and manic that he barely got a word in during the first 20 minutes. My hands seemed to have taken on a life of their own. I’m a big gesturer anyway but at the moment my hands are literally flying out in front of me. I’m very surprised they didn’t swoop out and knock over my wine glass.

I think not smoking has given me more energy than usual, but I’m not sure this is a good thing, given that I rarely sit still as it is. On the up side, imagine what I can achieve with all that spare energy… Out on my bike at lunchtime, there’s no way I’ll be able to sit here for the rest of the afternoon otherwise.