So i’ve not been sleeping well – again, and I’ve not been feeling great. The not sleeping magnifies the not feeling great, which makes me feel guilty for not being able to be stronger, which feels impossible because I haven’t felt well rested in a week or so.
I thought that I could make loads of things happen at once and be okay with it, turns out it’s not as easy as just making changes, there’s a little thing called adjusting that I need to do as well. I am unfamiliar with not being on top of things and in control and as a result feel insecure and weakened. Unfortunately the key to getting on top of this is some degree of patience as time needs to pass in order to fall in with adjustment. Sadly; patience is a virtue I must learn to cultivate.
