…don’t get depressed.
People’s elbows gently but persistently nudging me on the tube, a colleagues chair squeaking as he intermittently swings back and forth in it, loud voices, louder children, queues, bus drivers going too slowly or driving too cautiously…they all chip away at my fast dwindling patience.
I’m not the happiest of people at the moment and haven’t been for a number of months. I’ve been trying to ignore it in the hopes that it will go away, but little things like becoming tearful at newspaper stories and not being able to watch the news for longer than 5 minutes tell me that I need to acknowledge my unhappiness. Just because I don’t seem to have any particular reason to be unhappy does not stop me from being that way. I can see a light at the end of the tunnel and if I could snap my fingers and bring me closer to it – of course I would. But like a lot if things in life, there is no quick fix, I’m just going to have to live with it until one day I wake up and realise I don’t feel this way any more.
Self awareness at this time is not the greatest asset. In fact the pragmatism I feel becomes useless when I consider the abstract nature of it. I can rationalise and consider ways to feel better all I like, but that doesn’t mean I actually will. In some ways it makes it worse because I’m putting a lot of pressure on myself and in doing that I feel like I’m failing.
Still, lets see what a large bar of Green and Blacks Almond milk chocolate can do – a quick fix better than none at all.
